Loss

Jakey: July 2009- May 2010

Abbey cried. We had our very first pet funeral. He is buried in our backyard, with a big rock to mark his grave.

As a mom you always wonder what you will feel like dealing with your own child's sorrows. I seem to handle theirs much better than I do/did my own. I assumed it would be the opposite. I figured I would melt into a puddle of unable. While wanting to take away their pain or even yet wanting to stand between them and the inevitable in the first place, I thought I would grieve so hard on their behalf that I would remain paralyzed. I realize now I have to be strong for them. I have learned to brace myself and plow through the pain, guiding their way. I find myself explaining, comforting, reading scripture, praying, and listening t0 them. They need me to be solid. A guardian. A protector. A defender. A mother.

Mothering & Grief: Not for the weak.

Jeremiah 31:13 ~"I will turn their mourning into gladness; I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow." NLT